behind open door

sometimes this meekness sentiment never came out of non-existence! that days when you feel like you detest the whole world, your surroundings and everybody else. i once thought of it... some people been asking how i've been... that to sad extent it's the moment i want to keep in silent, times that i wanna live life bein discreet about my profile and to where i am now or my plans ahead... at times i feel like am a deaf-mute, numb and never cared at all. simply because i don't wanna be bothered of the thoughts of other people's negativeness.

so thanks to those few people i entrust my life, for the ones who believed in me, appreciates and listen. .. who never gets out of nowhere, who would always there when you needed. i appreciate that much, although time is running fast, in months or years to come, i know we'll be grown ups again, experiencing the ups and downs in life...

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recently, my back aches as well as my chest pain attacked once in a while. i'm bit it was due to anxiety. coz looking back and scrutinizing what's with my present situation equals (=) a pretty hard decision. sometimes the feelings seemed flattering me but in back of those things, _ just one move you'll surely lose the game! i know you don't understand me (for now) but one thing's for sure, it's irresistible. haha get it? hmp, anyway, i'll change the topic, since this requires some deep analysis... (i'll write back the details soon once i've decided)_

hmmp. this month is full of traveling hours. behind pressures, time management is always a must. and... i miss the chance bein with my bros starting off _monday coz i was in N.C.R. ... i miss the night life over DC and i know sometime tomorrow will not be enough to feed my desires. *sigh* wish i could have a longeeeeer vacation! i just wanna get out in here... _just counting my few more weeks, days, hours, minutes, & seconds...

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hmp, what's new with my bookshelf this time? hmp... ah yadah! i bought some novelty books, one written by Anne Rice entitled "the Witching Hour", some Philippine Ghost Stories particularly the "House of Horror", and hmp of course, my ultimate fave_ Bo Sanchez' "Simplify and Live a Good Life"... and here i'm picking one of his great piece...

it was "keep looking for the open door" that says_

_you won't close every sale, no matter what you do.

some people won't like you.

in fact, along the way, you'll get lambasted, criticized, ridiculed.

in a word, you'll be rejected. hmp, we'll REJECT the REJECTION! most likely.

because somewhere near that door that just shut you'll find an open door. so keep on looking.

_one day, a man was taking a train ride feeling dejected because he wasn't accepted at this writing job he was applying for. the editor who evaluated his work said he "lacked creativity." on that train ride, this man was doodling in his little note pad & a little mouse was born on that piece of paper. that mouse's name was "Mickey", and that man's name was Walt Disney.

_do you think Albert Einstein was esteemed by all his teachers & classmates alike? Think again. As a kid, one professional said Albert's grade were very mediocre, he was the most likely student to amount to nothing.

_Thomas Edison had more than a thousand failed experiments before he invented the light bulb. It was he who said, "One greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always try just one more time."

_i've also failed many times than Edison. At any one point in my life, i simply could have given into my fears and threw in the towel and said, "that's it. i'm quitting." but i don't have to follow my fears if the deepest voice in my heart says, "Go on. Do what's right."

_in any job, whether it be sales or accountancy, rejection is a given and might as well as finding your right mate. it's merely a question of when it will come, for whom and how you're going to respond it.

_the best responce is to keep on looking for the open door.

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and be it noted guys... NO ONE MAKE YOU FEEL INFERIOR WITHOUT YOUR CONSENT!!!

Live up a good life guys!

_Ash