sUper Ok

lately

i'm rather good at blurring little things

like lines between cleanliness and technology

steady!

i'm trying pretty hard to keep from getting seen

but you pointed out and laughed at me

this jig is up

dont be anything but OK

fact is i must admit i like it

and i decline to choose a team unless

they're paired in 2's.

maybe i'm definetly thinking

ok alright enough i said OK

you can come to

don't run that's not fair!

zOLof

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wheew i Love this sOng. it makes my heart sing as well. so alive!!! gonna give ya - - - ♥♥♥ - - -

got that one from a co blogger. although it's a short song, i still love listening on it all over again! and it makes me feel SUPER OK! hmp. ooryt, i surpassed my pretty hectic week and now it's a new week to begin. i once thought of giving up but that doesnt give me enough paveway if i constantly complaining.. so what i did? i just let it be and so far.. job well done. woohoo...

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now i'm thinkin bout side trippings? hmmm *thinking* hmmm... i wanna go to davao. right now, i'm plannin ahead so i could give some best times of my life spendin out with my big bro and sister in law. *i'm pretty excited* hehe Life seemed to fill into place now, putting all the bits and pieces together to act as one. But there's one thing left... amm friends... ya know (LOL).. would that be the person down below or is he that guy around HK? haha na-a.. nevermind. What matters to me now is my career, my pet, my interests. get your life priorities first.. ^^

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see ya ^^

i gOt a viRus...

and it's called procrastination. and it's killing me. I got lotta work to do but I just can't seem to finish them. It's killing me to work on it. I know that I once I get in the zone I won’t be able to stop, so why won't I push myself until I'm into it? Been dragging my feet on paying my bills this month. I know feelings of debt bring negative energy Why was I holding onto my money like that? I'm consulting from home so I can focus on my book. A coworker has been proofreading it and she's had it for over a month. She's been avoiding me when I email her. Finally I just told her to give it up. She hasn’t made one comment about the book. Cool, she doesn't like it. I'm not expecting everybody to like it, just like I'm not expecting everybody to like me. But now I'm a little pissed. Would it have killed her to give me some obligatory line like, "seems interesting..." That was what my mother said when she scanned it for all of 20 seconds. it was enough for me, even though I could tell it wasn't her cup of tea. I need to write my inquiry letter to try to get an agent but have I been doing that? No. What am I scared of? My greatest joy is when I get to go to bed at night and when I get to take food breaks in front of the TV during the day. This can't be good. So I try and psychobabble myself. What is the benefit of procrastinating? That’s easy; I don’t have to deal. I don’t have to feel the pressure. But of course in not doing I’m creating more pressure, plus anxiety, plus disappointment. I've been watching some reality series and thinking how much better off I would be if I had a Life Coach on my behind everyday. That’s what I need, someone to stay on my butt. I’ve never been particularly self-motivated, except when I become passionate about something. I don’t particularly like that about myself. It's not like I don't believe in myself. So what’s my problem? &*%$$*()@ ^^