brOken pLanS

Life frightens me again. Actually I'm terrified, and I don't know where the unpredictability of things will finally lead me. That's where my angst lies; in the fact that I don't have full control. I like to say that I hate to plan my life, and I do, but suddenly my lack of planning leaves me in a situation like this. In a situation that will show just how dependent I am of people around me. A dependence I hate to recognize. Maybe I hate planning my life as long as the days look the same. As long as I can feel secure with not planning.